a battle..

It started the day i saw you turning back,

the moment I see you smiling from that dark,

star shines brightly,

things change for you and for me,

I thought it was dream soon to come true,

the dream I always thought to be with you.,

never suspected the nightmare is about to unfold,

the suffering I was to be in, wasn't ever told.

Then, i realize it's not that easy,

to regain what we had,

my heart says you can.

But my mind disagree,

later the war begins,

war between my heart and mind,

i was confuse and don't know what to do.,

i'm afraid to break myself again.,

afraid to endure the same pain.,

and it's hard to admit that after all

those tears and pain,

my heart never stop on beating

I try to ignore what heart is shouting.

Then i did not notice i was already losing

i kept on fighting.

My mind grew stronger,

but my heart is weakening,

so it happened..

I lost the fight..

You and me, never a 'we' now apart.

I found myself alone in the dark,

my heart is breaking apart,

the scar suddenly bleeds

oh what do i deed?

I had loved but hated instead

i waited for years to fix those broken pieces,

but at a moment I lost control

i hated too much and fall

all the pain bounce back to me,

now the pain lingers over my heart and body,

my tired and exhausted feet

i can't give a single move of it..

why i can't just forgive and let go,

like what my heart tells me so,

why all those bruises keep burning my soul,

burning grudges takes control

a ghost of yesterday ruins,

my future and my present..

Now i was lost and alone.

Stocked up and can't go on..

Co'z it's me to be blame.

Why i'm suffering in flame.

It burns me out..

How can i fix this broken heart.